To everything there is a Season....

Often when I am talking to a friend, I will (almost daily) ask her, "What has God been showing you today?" I have been walking these last few months in an intense awareness that God is showing me the true depths of my own soul, while at the same time, He is showing me more of who He is, and is removing some of the veils I see Him through. Sometimes when I ask my friend this question, she will be quickly to answer, and then other times, much like myself, she struggles to answer because there are times when God doesn't seem to be showing us anything.

This has made me ponder and contemplate in those times where we do not really know what God is showing us, what we should focus on...

Over the last few months, God has been so very real to me (much more than I have ever experienced before) and while there have been times when He has almost visibly peeled back the layers between heaven and earth to show me something new, there are times when I have looked back and wondered "did I miss it? did I miss something God was showing me?" I sit here tonight, and I ponder this question.

Then, when I am thinking about something completely different, God seems to show me the answer I was searching for previously. There are times when He shows us things on a daily basis, yet there are also times, when He simply wants us to soak in what He has already shown us. This is where I find myself tonight. I keep looking for a new revelation, yet God seems firm to tell me to soak in things I have been shown.

I awaken everyday eager to learn something new and get closer to His presence, yet, just being in His presence is both maturing me, and liberating me! My authority told me that God was not treating me like a sponge. You can take the driest sponge, and place it in water, and almost instantly it will soak up all the moisture and become truly drenched in liquid.

God has been treating me like a steak. (I know I know, I come up with awful analogies), but because I once enjoyed the anointing and God's presence, and later became dry, God has been treating me like a steak which is marinating in His presence.

Soaking a sponge is almost instant. Marinating takes time. But as anyone that loves steaks will tell you, the best steaks are the ones that are marinated, and slow cooked.

This means that there are times where the next revelation is going to be (not delayed) but appointed for a later day, because we need to simply BE in His presence! I am not good at the just "being." I always feel like I should be "doing" something, anything to get closer to the presence of God.

Just BE.

Not DO.

Just BE.

One thing I am thinking about though, is how we view "history" and what will be recorded when we die. See, the thing is, we have always been told to live our lives in such a way that when we go home to be with the Lord, that our 'legacy' would remain. We seem to think that what we do in this life (aka, have a big ministry, have a bigger impact on the world, etc) is the most important thing. But, have we ever considered that how this world remembers us is COMPLETELY different than how heaven's history books will record our deeds?

Will we look at ministries which have a huge following as more notable than those who did not have a bug following? Is it the number of people that will affect heaven's account? Or is it people? God seems much more concerned with quality rather than quantity. I know of ministries that (and this might sound judgmental) have massive followings, it they produce very few changed lives. But I also know of ministries where very few people will have heard of them, but they absolutely change the lives of those who plug into them!

What we do in this life.... will it matter when viewed through the lens of eternity? Heaven will have a set of History Books. All of the details of our lives are recorded in them. These books will be use to determine loss/reward when we (those redeemed by the Cross) stand before the Judgment Seat. What will these books say of me? What will these books say of you? Will they tell of a life laid down for the Glory of the Lamb? Or will they reveal a life that was busy trying to 'do' for the Kingdom as if what we did in this life (through our own motives/initiative) were the important thing?

Jesus said, Deny yourself, take up your cross (symbolic of your death), and follow Him. Follow Him where He leads us. Deny ourselves. Take up our Cross!

Deny ourselves! Take up (our) Cross! Follow Him! And just "BE"